Rolffrom

Furry visual artist & Musician

Furry Loser Song Facts

Furry Loser Song Facts

Furry Loser - Loser Dance Party

Loser Dance Party

1. Don't Like You Anymore

Inspired by my first online friend after I decided he was too toxic a presence in my life to keep around. I cut off contact with him, but funnily enough, now (some eight years later) he's in some circles I'm also in, so I suppose I can't get away, lol.This was one of the last songs I finished for the Loser Dance Party EP. It took me forever to get it down because I just wasn't satisfied with the sound. I wanted to give it this very crowded feeling of it being performed at an old timey saloon, but I had several limitations with the recording equipment I had at the time. I would either record the parts using my phone or my crappy earbuds microphone. This remained the case up to "Active Members of Society."The song features: piano, accordion, electric guitar, acoustic guitar, bass synth, a bass drum sample pattern, bad snare drum playing, tambourine.At 0:55, there is a vocal "conversation" that's very muddled by the instruments. It goes:
"What do you say now? How do you feel? Is it all made up or is it something real?" The response goes: "Why do you always have to be so complicated?"

2. Winston & Julia

This song was inspired by my reading of George Orwell's "Nineteen Eighty-Four". Before reading it, I never really guessed how the story of the book went down, so I was very surprised when I found out while reading it that there's a very interesting sort of love story in it. A bit twisted, sure, but a love story of sorts nonetheless.The song opens with a sample from Costa Rican National Public TV channel 7, "Teletica". The sample comes from what their identification bumper was back in the year 2000. You can watch a clip of it following this link:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5yU6gPoHThsI originally wanted the song to have this fade-in effect for the instrument buildup intro, with the quiet drums and the guitar riff. But for this original version of the song, I had no idea how to use the DAW I use properly at the time. I was very much a beginner, so I didn't know how to do fade-ins or fade-outs and such. And I've never been bright enough to look up these things online. Either that or I'm stubborn and determined to find out by myself.The solo between the first and second chorus is very quiet and tinny, that's why I used to refer to it as a "tiny" solo.The song prominently features my old keyboard: a Yamaha PSR-300 from the early 1990s. Beautiful synth sounds on that thing. I've been wanting to get another PSR-300 for ages now. Mine's very broken now. This keyboard is the one portrayed on the Furry Loser logo. But that's a story for some other place on this page.

3. Tom

Remember I said I was not the brightest kid? This song is inspired by own self-directed frustrations as a teenager. I did some really bad things bad then, to myself. I exposed myself to many dangers then as a youngling. Now that I'm older, I'm very changed and a lot more responsible. I can't help but feel sad for my own past self. So if you're facing trouble and you feel trapped in your own mind, please reach out to someone. Get help and avoid doing things that could destroy you and those around you.This is a great song though. I still love it. It's still my mom's favorite of mine, I believe.The bass guitar is a sample from a voice message my dearly beloved friend Patrick sent me over WhatsApp a few journeys around the sun ago. We were both in high school at the time, and we both wanted very badly to become musicians. I love him very much, he's still such a great friend ever since I met him at age 9.The song was originally laid out as a demo using samples from old video games and had a few more different parts, most of which came back for the "Music for Creatures" release of this song.I wanted to write a song about diverse people. There's really only four people mentioned in the song, but in my head they were very different one from another, which is part of the tragedy of the song. These people want to be close because they see a bit of themselves in each other, but once they get close enough, it's all so different, they can't really be together or go back to how things were before.Tom is a gay cat in his late teens. Young, anxious, afraid, eager.
John is an older bisexual man, married, and a father as well.
Jan is a lesbian bunny. The very extroverted type, can be overbearing.
Rosalía, her best friend, is aromantic and asexual. She doesn't want the type of attention she receives from her friend.There's an organ solo that's barely audible in the mix on "Loser Dance Party", during the final verse and before the final choruses. I think it's been amped up in the "Music for Creatures" version.

4. Marco & Marty

This one is still one of my favorites. It was my top favorite song of my own for a long time. Not anymore, but it still holds a very special place in my heart.It's the first song I put out, and it was a birthday gift for my friend cartoonist Billy Fore. I think his online handle is Billcatter still. I don't really use social media that much anymore. He's such a great artist though, and he's really got a heart of gold. I greatly appreciate him.Marco and Marty are the titular characters to his opus, a comic that has evolved plenty since its inception (around/before 2010?) This comic changed me a bit, in a good way. Reading it at the time I read it was formative somehow. I was very troubled at the time, but having these characters I could —in a way— relate to was just what I needed at the time. I needed it wholeheartedly. And I'm glad they were there for me too.The lyrics are all pulled up from the comic one way or another. Whether it's paraphrasing events in it or directly quoting it.The hook-ish lyric "Friendship is sharing wakeful hours instead of well-rested solitude" comes from this strip:
https://68.media.tumblr.com/tumblrlrqxu01ARA1qbqjozo11280.gifThis song also features my old Yamaha PSR-300. That's what the main riffs to the song are played on. And what the backing drums and rhythm part are taken from too.I wrote, recorded and put this song together all in 12 hours. Because it was Bill's birthday the day after I started. I started at 6pm and I remember some my family was staying over, so while I was recording it, I had to be quiet in the late hours of the night/early hours of the morning as to not wake anyone up. I thought I succeeded, but the next morning, my dad asked me why I was up singing all night, lol. In fact, at the end of the song, at 3:10, you can hear a very faint voice. That's my mom knocking on my door when they arrived home and I was starting to work on the song. Love you, ma.I finished putting the song together at 6am on Bill's birthday and I put it out on Bandcamp and shared it on this thing that was called Twitter at the time, it got some attention, but what made me happiest is that Bill enjoyed it very much. That made it all worth it!

5. Loser Dance Party

This one was written as an upbeat, rock lullaby of sorts for the boyfriend I was dating at the time. He was the first person who made me feel loved and happy in a new way that's still hard to explain now. First time I truly fell in love. He taught me a lot, I loved him with all my heart.It follows a standard, like-classic rock-and-roll groove and chord progression. I wasn't looking to break any new ground with this song, at all. I just wanted to get a few words of love across with it, in a special way.Don't date musicians unless you're ready to have music written for you, hahah.The song features another tinny solo towards the end. It's baaarely audible; it starts at 4:15 and goes all the way to the end. I think it's louder on "Loser Dance Party / High School Suicide Pact".I hope you'll be pleased to know that the person I wrote the song for and I are still good friends. We've had ups and downs, but he still matters very, very much to me. Thanks for sticking around, possumbutt. :)

Furry Loser - Loser Dance Party

High School Suicide Pact

1. Sad Gen

I love this song. I feel like it's a bit underrated, but maybe that's just me projecting because it's a very personal song.When I was a kid, I really used to think that my life only got better with each passing year. Now, I believe this to be the case again, but for a while in my mid to late teens, I was very depressed. Life became stagnant and sad for a bit.The song references my waning friendships towards the end of high school ("We used to hang out very often[...]")As well as my family putting pressure on me to do something with my life ("And everyone wants me to be something[...]"), and the time my dad's house was broken into and I had a bunch of my stuff stolen ("I've lost my happiest memories[...]"). It was a BAD time.The chorus bit is very sad, but then at the end, I try to divert attention from that by pointing out that the track sounds like another song. It's commentary on how I felt at the time that life for a teenager, like myself at the time, can be very confusing and angry, but we rarely want to talk to a grown-up —or anyone else for that matter— about it. So it's easier to just be a bit ironic about it and hide behind a wall of "pay attention to this other thing, not my issues." ... It's also commentary on how I thought this part of the song sounds in its progression like the pre-chorus to "Buddy Holly" by Weezer.The song was mostly performed on a Yamaha DGX-660 digital piano. The lead keyboard part is a preset on that keyboard that emulates the sound of a CP-80 piano.The drums were recorded on my phone's voice memos app. I put the phone on a high shelf in my closet, and set up the drums in my tiny, crowded room I lived in at the time. So the microphone was a bit far away from the drums, which I suppose gives it that very ample sound. That phone had really good mic quality in all honesty.

2. I Kissed You

OKAY, so. This song is a bit controversial in my head. It is sort of a "vent song." I was so embarrassed in the end by the lyrical content that I never put out the lyrics anywhere. Because, how do you justify your really mean, dark thoughts to the whole Internet?It's about a few people, and about myself too. But I never really make a distinction on who the song is about at different points. I won't get into what it really is about.The piano on this is my DGX-660 keyboard once again. The tambourine is a drum pattern on the DAW. There's not much that makes up this song, in track quantity.I think the original file name for this project is "you kissed me". How about that?

3. Suicide Pact

This remains BY FAR my most popular song. Which is funny because I didn't think it'd amount to much? Don't get me wrong — I love this song, but I never ever expected it to be my most listened one.The riff was written on piano, so it's originally a piano song. But I thought it was too punky not to play on electric guitar. I didn't have one at the time though, but my friend Patrick offered to lend me his for a few days around the same time I was writing the song, so I used his axe for it. Thanks, Pat!The song features: an intro sample (I'll get into that in a sec), electric guitar, a bass synth, a drum machine pattern, live drum tracks.The intro sample is taken from the opening clip to the "Suicide Pact" video. It's a clip from sometime in mid-2016. Some friends and I were staying at my sister's house while she and her family were away on holiday. All with due permission to do so, of course. And at some point one of those nights, we sneaked up into the attic to look for board games or something. But we found a bunch of cool stuff we were playing around with; one of those was this bunny ears headband. So, someone put on a future-funk playlist and I was dancing to it with the headband on. My friend Patrick then recorded the clip of me dancing in the attic on his phone. As seen on the video, I mess up and stand up a bit tall and hit my head right on the main i-beam that supports the house's roof. It was really loud, and it hurt a little bit (it wasn't too bad.) But I've always been one to up the ante to make others laugh. So quickly I pretended to pass out after hitting my head. That's where the clip ends. My friends were all quiet and when I looked up again their eyes were wide open and they looked so scared LOL. I feel bad now writing it out, but I got a good chuckle out of it, hahah.The clips that make up the video to this song are all from my phone's gallery and other sources I owned, but they were all recorded by me or my friends. Many of these clips are taken from home movies we used to turn in as assignments for our civics class in high school. We got really good at writing and directing these skits which were of course based around the general idea of what topics the teacher wanted us to tackle with the assignments. We did use the videos more so as an excuse to make our other friends laugh and have a good time out of their long, gray days at school.The title of the song is based around something we used to do in high school. We had this bit, us as students and some of the teachers were in on it: whenever we were in exam periods or had one too many assignments to work on, we'd —jokingly of course— suggest a suicide pact, so we'd successfully get to avoid turning in assignments and work. The usual response would then be just riffing from it and saying things like "Yeah, I'm down, but it'd be better if we do it Friday instead because I'm going out Thursday." etc.All those good times with the friends I had were soon coming to an end, with senior year getting nearer; and the fact that we would graduate and go our own separate ways was making me a bit sad, so I wrote this song and made the video for it to commemorate all the good times we did have. We had something very special and I'll always be grateful for it.Also, even though this song was my attempt at replicating the sound of one of my favorite bands at the time —that being Teen Suicide— the chord progression for this song is taken from "Where is My Mind" by Pixies. It's just one chord short of being the same.

4. Meant

This is the first song I ever wrote. Of course, it's not the first I did put out, but it's the first one I started working on. It's about the first time I had my heart broken by someone.It was somebody I was dating online; long-distance relationship and such. And the song was originally going to be a love song for them, but they were a bad partner to me and eventually broke up with me. And when I later found out it was because they were seeing someone else without me knowing, I was devastated to say the least, ha. Anyway, we're on okay terms now, I guess. We don't really talk, but that's kind of on me being really bad at keeping up with conversation. They don't know this song is about them, but I wouldn't care if they did.This happened and I fell into this depression that lasted some two years, I guess. Not all because of them breaking up with me and whatever, but the circumstances I found myself in in my life were all collapsing onto me, and it was just sad sad sad. For a while, I considered 2016 (the year I started this song) to be the last good year I'd lived through. Of course now, that's very dramatic and not the case anymore, but I was having a rough time."Meant" is one of my favorite songs. Not just from my own collection, but I just love it very much in general. Whenever I pick up a guitar, this is the first tune I strum to most of the time. It's a simple one to play, too. It amounts up to four chords all-together.This song features drums, tambourine, electric and acoustic guitars, bass, and synths. It's a very straight-forward song and in the grand scheme of things, it's nothing too special. But something about it just makes it That Special to me. I don't know if it's the fact that it's the first time I used music to really cope with my feelings or what, but I just have so much love in my heart for this tune.Remember I said in the "Suicide Pact" bit I had my stuff stolen during a break-in robbery? The original files and demo stuff for this song was taken away in the laptop I had stolen at that time. I was about to give up on music all-together because I was certain that demo was gone and all the work I put into that song was only ever recorded on that laptop at the time. BUT after wallowing for a couple days, I remembered I had sent someone (I think it was my mom) an mp3 file of that demo via WhatsApp. So I looked around, and sure enough: there it was in all its glory. So I had something to cling onto to successfully remake the track faithfully for its proper release.You can listen to that version here:

5. Ballad of

I think this was the last song I worked on for both the Loser Dance Party and High School Suicide Pact projects. Of course, it made it onto the latter, as HSSP is the rock music EP (while LDP is the synth-pop EP.)This is another vent song, much like "I Kissed You", and same as with that song, I didn't put out the lyrics for it out of embarrassment.The intro follows a standard, like doo-wop ballad progression and features me talking about what the song was originally going to be about. Because this song was originally titled "Goodbye", an idea that was remade for a track I published later on.It later turns into a surf-rock type song in which I express my frustrations about... everything really, but it tackles the same issues I had sung about on "Tom".Towards the end of the song, I was running out of writing steam, so I started turning those lyrics of frustration into venting about how I just wanted to get the song done already. A bit meta, I suppose.In a way, this might be the most adventurous song on both the "Loser Dance Party" and "High School Suicide Pact" releases. Even if it's a bit predictable, it kind of surprises me I was able to put this (and every other song at the time, frankly) together. I had no previous writing or recording experience. And as easy as hitting Record on a DAW is, there's a lot more to handle when it comes to producing your own music, which is something I found out soon enough, lol. I do really enjoy this song though. A friend of mine really likes it, so I might attempt a live version of it one day.